Sunday, January 6, 2008

Funny how easy it is to write about something you hate.

My life has reached a point of such utter boredom and misery that I begin to sob over my discontent reality, because, truthfully, I have never been happy or loved. I've read such messages from people who crave attention and excitement, but when you murmur these sentences and mean it, you truly understand the word agony. If you can justify your own death, what makes you hesitate? I only have my rationales now and this is sad. My whole life has been my acknowledgment of the world around me, the systems and manifestations, the pain and happiness, which I all recognize, but this exterior shell of wisdom has become completely helpless against the nihility in life. What can I do? Do you understand?

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